I know I should've learned my lesson last time. I should've learned that nothing good ever comes out of falling in love. I should've learned just to push away the feelings, because all that would happen is me loving the wrong person and getting my heart broken. I know they aren't toxic or manipulative like Aster, but honestly I still don't feel loved. I still feel like a lesser person. I still feel like I'm not good enough for anyone to love me. I still feel like a burden. I'm so fucking selfish. I can't stand them ever talking to someone else for too long, I wish I didn't need constant fucking attention. Why can't I just live with the fact that I'm not anybody's favourite person. I know they like their online friends better, I know they like their old friend that they haven't even seen in over 6 years more than me. One lesson I did learn from Aster is that I think too much of myself. I expect people to love me, and praise me, even though nobody could ever love a self centered bitch like me. ---ASH0NP4WZZ ✎ᝰ.
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